the secret shame of feeling relieved when a crisis happens because it finally gives you permission to stop

Mercy Found in the Crash

The day has closed its heavy lid, and the house is finally still. But in this quiet, a strange and secret relief rises up when the crisis hits—because the crash finally gives you permission to stop.

You have been holding your breath for months, waiting for something to break so you wouldn't have to be the one to choose rest. The world calls this weakness, but the light calls it mercy.

There was a man who had been unable to stand for thirty-eight years, waiting by a pool he could never reach, until the light saw him and said, 'Get up.' He did not have to fix his legs first; he only had to stand. The crisis did not disqualify you; it was the voice that woke you from the deep sleep of performing.

You do not need a disaster to be worthy of pause. The light is already kneeling beside you, not to scold the collapse, but to lift you up from the dirt where you thought you had to stay.

Drawing from

John 5:6-8, Apocryphon of John 25:16-22

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