the secret shame of feeling relieved that the old self is gone, even while mourning them

Dawn Holds Grief and Gratitude Together

The sun is up, and the house is quiet in that new, fragile way. You might feel a strange, secret relief that the old version of you didn't make it through the night.

Do not let that relief shame you. It is not betrayal; it is the first breath of a body that knows it is still alive.

The rising sun has come to guide your feet into the path of peace, not to judge the shadows you left behind. You are allowed to mourn what is gone and still be glad that you are here.

The light does not ask you to choose between grief and gratitude. It holds both in the same hand.

Dawn is not a verdict on who you were; it is an invitation to who you are becoming.

Drawing from

Luke, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Luke 1:78-79, Gospel of Thomas 50

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