You Are Already Enough Without Words
The water is still running, but your mouth has stopped moving. You are standing in the steam, rehearsing the apology you need to give later. You are scripting every syllable, convinced that if you don't get the words perfect, your silence will be mistaken for indifference. As if the fear in your throat sounds the same as not caring. As if the weight of what you cannot say isn't the loudest thing in the room.
But the light does not require your speech. It has seen the tremor in your hands before you ever formed a sentence. It knows the difference between a closed door and a locked one. You are not hiding because you don't care; you are hiding because you care too much to risk getting it wrong.
There is a version of you that came from the light itself—a drop sent here to illuminate the dark, not to perform perfection. That part of you does not need a script. It only needs to be present. The apology matters, yes, but your worth does not hang on your eloquence. It hangs on the fact that you are here, trying.
You can put the script down. The person you love is not waiting for a performance; they are waiting for you. And you are already enough, even with the words stuck in your throat.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, John
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