The Light Is Not Afraid of Your Gravity
The sun has gone down, and now the real work begins: the performance of being okay. You smile at the people you love because you are terrified that your honest face would be too heavy for them to carry.
You swallow the grief, the exhaustion, the fear, and you offer them a polished version of yourself instead. You think this is love.
You think protecting them from your weight is the highest form of care. But there is a burden you are carrying that was never meant for human shoulders: the belief that your pain makes you a burden.
Tonight, in the gathering dark, the light speaks a different truth. It does not ask for your performance.
It does not need you to be light on your feet. There is a presence that wants to sit with you in the exact heaviness you are hiding.
You do not have to earn your place at the table by pretending the meal isn't hard to swallow. The light is not afraid of your gravity.
It is not looking for a reason to stay. It is already here, not because you are easy to love, but because you are loved.
Stop performing gratitude for the air you breathe. Just breathe.
Drawing from
Matthew, Gospel of Mary
Verses
Matthew 11:28
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