Holding the Living While Silence Speaks
The house is quiet now, but your hands are still full of a weight that isn't there. You hold your own child, warm and breathing, yet your palms remember the phantom pressure of the one you could not save.
The darkness tries to convince you that your failure defined them, that your inability to fix them erased their light. But the light that lived in them was never yours to keep or lose — it was theirs, placed there before you ever met, untouched by your hands or your mistakes.
In this watch, you are not the savior; you are simply the one who remains, holding the living while the silence speaks. The love you carry did not end when they left; it only changed shape, and it is still enough to hold the child in your arms tonight.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, John
Verses
John 10:28
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