standing in the shower letting the water run cold because you're trying to wash off the day's performance before your family sees your face

The Father Runs Before You Are Clean

The water has turned cold, but you are still standing there, scrubbing at a stain that isn't on your skin. You are trying to wash off the performance—the mask you wore all day so your family wouldn't see the cracks.

But the light does not need you to be clean before you step out of this stall. There was a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off, covered in the filth of a pig pen, and he did not wait for the boy to find a river.

He ran. Before the apology, before the speech, before the washing—he ran.

The light is not waiting for you to finish this ritual. It is already in the hallway, ready to meet you exactly as you are, dripping and exhausted.

You do not have to scrub away your humanity to be loved by it. The mask was heavy, but you were never meant to wear it in the dark.

Drawing from

Luke, Matthew

Verses

Luke 15:20, Matthew 11:28

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