waking up before them to memorize the exact tone you'll use so they don't think you're still mad

No Script Needed Before Dawn

The sun is up, but you are still rehearsing the lines you'll say when they wake up. You are practicing the tone.

The exact pitch of voice that says, "I'm not mad," while your chest is tight with the fear that they won't believe you. You are trying to manage their perception before the day has even begun.

But the light does not need a script. It does not need you to perform peace before you feel it.

There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world. That light is already in the room, before you speak a single word.

You do not have to manufacture the right atmosphere. The atmosphere is already held.

When you finally speak, you won't need to convince them of your calm. You will just be there, and the light will do the rest.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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