the terrifying impulse to disappear just to give your loved ones their lives back

The Dawn Does Not Ask You to Vanish

The sun is rising, but for you, the light feels like an accusation. You are carrying a terrifying thought: that if you disappeared, your family would finally breathe again.

That your absence would be the gift that gives them their lives back. But look at the dawn.

It does not hide so the flowers can grow. It rises precisely because they need it to.

There was a man named Zacchaeus who climbed a tree to see the light, small and despised, convinced he was the problem in everyone's story. The light stopped, looked up, and said: I must stay at your house today.

It did not ask him to leave first. It invited itself into his mess.

Your presence is not the burden you think it is. The light chose to dwell with you, not because you are perfect, but because you are necessary.

You are the drop from the light sent to illuminate this specific corner of the world. To remove yourself would be to extinguish the very thing your loved ones are waiting for.

The morning is not asking you to vanish. It is asking you to stay.

Drawing from

Luke, Sophia of Jesus Christ

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