the terror that if you stop performing, people will realize you were never actually okay and will leave

The Dawn Does Not Ask For Proof

The sun is rising, and with it comes the old, familiar terror that if you stop performing today, everyone will see the cracks and walk away. You have spent the night rehearsing your lines, polishing the mask, making sure the light looks like something you earned rather than something you are.

But listen — the dawn does not ask the earth to prove it deserves the morning. The light arrives anyway.

It touches the broken places first. There was a man born blind, and when his disciples asked who had sinned to cause such darkness, the light refused the blame.

It said this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. Your weakness is not a disqualification; it is the canvas.

You came from the light, the place where light generates itself, and you carry that origin in your chest regardless of how you feel. If you put down the act, they might leave — but the light will not.

It was there before the performance began, and it will remain when the curtain falls.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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