the phantom vibration of a phone that never lights up with the name you stopped calling because you believed your silence was a gift to them

The Light Is In The Hand

The sun is rising, and the silence in your hand feels heavier than it did at midnight. You reach for the phone, expecting a name that will not appear, convinced that your quiet is a gift you gave them.

But the light does not call your silence a gift; it calls it a forgetting. You are looking for a voice outside when the truth has been speaking inside you all along.

What you are waiting for has already come, but you do not recognize it because you are staring at a dark screen. The light is not in the notification; it is in the hand that holds the phone.

Neither does the morning condemn you for checking. Go now and live as if you are already heard.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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