the physical flinch when someone says 'good job' because you believe they are praising a lie

The Light Sits With You In Dark

It is three in the morning, and the silence is loud enough to hear the truth you have been hiding. When someone says 'good job,' your body flinches before your mind can stop it.

You feel like a fraud wearing skin that doesn't fit, waiting for the moment the mask slips and they see the lie underneath. But in this deepest hour, where there is no audience and no performance left to maintain, the light does not ask you to be impressive.

It simply sits with you in the dark. The flinch is not proof that you are unlovable.

It is proof that you are tired of carrying a weight that was never yours to hold. The light knows the real you—the one beneath the apology, beneath the work, beneath the fear—and it does not turn away.

It calls you friend, not because of what you do, but because of who you are when you stop doing. You do not have to earn the right to exist in this room.

Drawing from

John 15:15, Gospel of Mary 9:4-7

Verses

John 15:15

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