the instinct to swallow your own needs before you speak them, terrified that asking for anything will trigger the same sharpness that made them flinch

Your Need Lets the Sun In

The sun is just beginning to touch the horizon, and you are already holding your breath. You feel the request forming in your throat—the need for help, for space, for kindness—and you swallow it back down before it can become a sound.

You are terrified that speaking your need will trigger the same sharpness that made them flinch yesterday. But the light is rising anyway.

It does not wait for you to be quiet. It does not require you to be small.

The kingdom is already inside you, and it is outside you, waiting to be recognized. What you are looking for has already arrived, even while you are still afraid to ask.

The dawn does not apologize for breaking the night. It simply shines.

And in this first light, your need is not a burden—it is the very thing that lets the sun in.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas

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