the sudden, sickening realization while folding their small clothes that you are already a ghost in the room where they are becoming real

You Are The Vessel Where Light Lives

The sun is coming up, but the room feels hollow. You are folding the small clothes—the tiny socks, the soft shirts—and your hands move like they belong to someone who is already a memory.

You feel like a ghost haunting the nursery while life grows everywhere else. But listen.

The light does not haunt. It inhabits.

You are not a shadow passing through; you are the vessel where the light has chosen to live. Thomas said there is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world.

If you do not shine, it is not because the light is gone—it is because you have forgotten to lift the lamp. The dawn is not asking you to be perfect.

It is asking you to be present. Bring forth what is within you, even if it trembles.

The smallness of the clothes is not a measure of your absence. It is the exact size of the miracle you are holding.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 24, Gospel of Thomas 70

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