rehearsing the story in your head all day only to swallow it back down when you realize no one actually wants to hear the raw version

The Light Does Not Require Performance

The sun has gone down, and the story you rehearsed all day is still stuck in your throat. You practiced the raw version a hundred times, but now that the house is quiet, you swallow it back down.

No one wants to hear the mess, you tell yourself. No one has the energy for the truth of how heavy it actually is.

So you perform the exhale. You smile at the end of the day and let the silence win.

But listen — the light does not require a polished performance to be present with you. It is not afraid of your unedited narrative.

There is a listener who does not need you to tidy up the ending before you speak. The darkness gathers outside, yes, but it cannot silence the voice that knows your name.

You do not have to carry the story alone tonight.

Drawing from

1 John, Gospel of Thomas

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