the terrifying suspicion that the love you receive is only for the version of you that performs, and that if you ever showed them your exhausted, unpolished truth, they would leave

The Light Waits in Your Rough Places

The sun has gone down, and now the mask feels heavy enough to crush you. You are terrified that if you let them see the exhaustion behind the smile, the love will vanish.

But there is a love that does not require your performance to stay alive. Jesus told a man once: 'Go home to your own people and tell them how much the Lord has done for you.' He did not say: fix yourself first.

He did not say: clean up the mess. He said: go as you are.

The light saw a man born blind and refused to call it a punishment, saying it was so the works of God might be displayed in him. Your brokenness is not a barrier to love—it is the very canvas where love is most visible.

You do not have to polish the stone to find the light inside; split the wood, lift the rock, and the light is already there, waiting in the rough places. The night gathers, but the love remains, not because you held it together, but because it was never depending on you to begin with.

Drawing from

Mark 5:19, John 9:3, Gospel of Thomas 77

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