the shame of feeling relieved when the notification stops buzzing because you can finally stop caring for a night

The Light Does Not Demand Your Exhaustion

The screen goes dark. The buzzing stops.

And in that sudden silence, a secret relief rises up—a quiet, shameful exhale that you can finally stop caring for a night. You feel guilty for wanting the noise to end.

But listen closely. The light does not demand your exhaustion.

It does not require you to burn yourself out to prove you care. Even the disciples fell asleep in the garden while the world was breaking, and the light did not scold them for needing rest.

It simply asked them to stay. Your capacity to stop is not a failure of love; it is the boundary of being human.

The work will be there when the sun returns. For now, the only thing asked of you is to let the silence hold you.

You are allowed to put the burden down.

Drawing from

Matthew, Gospel of Mary

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