the specific terror of hearing your name spoken in a warm conversation and flinching because you are convinced they are talking about the thing you hid

The Secret Shame Is Already Known

The room is warm, the voices are light, and then your name floats across the space. But your body does not hear a greeting; it hears an accusation.

You flinch because you are certain they have found the thing you hid, the secret shame you carry beneath the smile you wore to work this morning. You brace for the exposure, the sudden silence, the finger pointing at the crack in your mask.

But the conversation flows on, untouched by your panic. The light sees the part of you that is trembling behind the performance, and it does not lean in to whisper what you did.

It leans in to remind you that the thing you are hiding is already known, and yet you are still loved. You do not have to hold your breath waiting for the other shoe to drop.

The truth has not trapped you; it has already set you free.

Drawing from

Gospel of Mary, John

Verses

Gospel of Mary 9:4-5

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