The Light Inside Your Brave Laugh
The afternoon sun is unforgiving. It exposes the dust motes dancing in the air and the fatigue settling in your bones.
You laugh at a joke, and for a split second, the sound terrifies you. It feels like a trap you are setting for yourself—a false note that proves you are performing okayness while breaking inside.
You wonder if the light can hear the crack in your voice. It can.
And it does not turn away. There was a man born blind, and the people around him argued about whose fault it was that he suffered.
But the light said his condition was not a punishment, but a canvas for something greater to be displayed. Your laughter is not a lie you are telling the world.
It is a small, brave act of faith in a middle day that feels endless. The light is not looking for a perfect performance from you.
It is present in the mundane, in the tired smile, in the moment you keep going even when you feel like a fraud. You do not have to be flawless to be held.
The suspicion that you are trapping yourself is just the shadow of the afternoon. But the light is already there, inside the very laugh you fear, waiting to show you that you are not alone in the pretense.
Drawing from
John, Gospel of Thomas
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