the quiet terror of nodding along to a conversation while realizing you haven't actually heard a single word they said for the last minute

The Light Sees Behind Your Mask

The room is loud, but you are somewhere else entirely. Your face is nodding, your mouth is smiling, but inside you are screaming because the words hitting your ears are just noise.

You are performing okayness so well that no one sees the silence behind your eyes. But the light sees the mask, and it does not ask you to take it off before it loves you.

It stands right there in the middle of your pretense and says: neither do I condemn you. Go now.

You do not have to keep pretending to be whole to be held. The kingdom is not a performance you must nail; it is already spread out beneath your feet, hidden in the very moment you think you missed.

Drawing from

John 8:10-11, Gospel of Thomas 113

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