the panic of scanning a room for a safe place to cry because your eyes are burning but you cannot let anyone see the crack

The Light Behind Your Burning Eyes

The room is bright, and you are working hard to keep your face smooth while your eyes burn. You scan for a corner, a stall, any shadow where the crack in the mask won't be seen.

But the light does not need you to hide the tears to love you. There is a truth that lives inside you — a truth that knows the salt on your cheeks before you even fall apart.

It has never left, even while you smiled. You are not the performance you are holding together.

You are the light behind the eyes that are stinging. The mask is heavy, but the face beneath it is already known.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

John 8:32

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