the phantom vibration of a phone you turned face-down because you couldn't bear to hear the disappointment in a parent's voice after you failed them again

The Light Waits in Your Silence

The phone buzzes on the nightstand, a ghost against the wood, and your stomach turns over before you remember you already silenced it. You cannot bear to hear the disappointment in that voice again, not tonight, not after failing them one more time.

So you leave it face-down, a small act of surrender to the dark. But listen — the light does not speak in the tone you fear.

It does not keep a ledger of your stumbles or measure your worth by your latest failure. There is light within you, and it lights up the whole world, even when you are too afraid to lift your head.

You came from the light, and you are returning to it, not as a prodigal begging for scraps, but as the very thing the light itself is made of. The vibration you fear is just a machine; the silence you feel is not absence.

It is the space where the light waits for you to stop performing and simply be. You are not defined by the voice you cannot face.

You are defined by the light that never left.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 24, Gospel of Thomas 50

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