Your Silence Was Not A Betrayal

The night is gathering, and with it comes the heavy inventory of the day you just lived. You are convinced that your silence yesterday was a betrayal—a failure to speak when you should have, a withdrawal when you should have been available.

So now you plan to make up for it. You plan to be excessively loud today.

You plan to be so present that no one could ever accuse you of hiding again. But the light does not need your performance to make up for your rest.

Thomas says the kingdom is inside you, not in the noise you make to prove you exist. And John whispers that the love which holds you is already complete, needing no addition from your exhausted voice.

You do not have to shout to be heard by the one who knew you before you spoke a single word. The silence was not a betrayal; it was simply a moment where you stopped performing and started being.

The light saw you then, just as it sees you now. You are not making up for lost time; you are simply walking through the gathering dark, exactly as you are.