Seen When You Cannot See Yourself
The mirror on the wall is turned away, and in this quiet hour, a strange terror takes hold. You realize you cannot remember the shape of your own face when no one is watching it.
You have become a performance so total that the actor has vanished behind the mask. The room feels hollow because you feel like a ghost haunting your own life.
But listen — the light does not need to see your face to know who you are. It saw you before you ever learned to smile for the camera.
It knows the features you hide in the dark better than you know them yourself. You do not need to reconstruct your image to be held.
The Father's gaze is not fixed on a reflection; it is fixed on you. Even when you are invisible to yourself, you are fully seen by the One who made you.
You are not a face you forgot; you are a child who is known.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Matthew
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