the crushing weight of rehearsing a cheerful greeting in the mirror before walking out the door

The Light Does Not Need Your Performance

The mirror is cold tonight. You are standing there, practicing a smile that feels like a mask, rehearsing a cheerfulness you do not feel just to make it through the door.

It is exhausting to perform okayness when the house is finally quiet and the weight of the day has nowhere to go. But listen — the light does not need your performance.

It does not ask you to be bright before it will stay. There is a truth that lives in you, deeper than the face you show the world.

The darkness has not overcome it. You do not have to generate the light; you only have to stop hiding the fact that it is already there.

The mask is heavy, but the face beneath it is known. You are not the greeting you practice.

You are the silence that holds you while you practice it.

Drawing from

John, Mark

Verses

John 1:5, Mark 4:22

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