The Light Waits Beneath Your Mask
The mask is heavy this morning, isn't it? You walk into the room, you smile at the right moments, you nod when you're supposed to nod, but inside there is a quiet panic that the part of you capable of joy has simply withered away.
You feel like laughter is a foreign language you once spoke fluently but have now forgotten entirely. The performance is exhausting because it requires you to manufacture a light you feel you no longer possess.
But listen — the light does not depend on your ability to feel it. There was a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off.
He did not wait for the boy to fix his face or rehearse an apology. He ran.
Before the speech, before the mask could be adjusted, he ran. That running is the truth underneath your acting.
You do not have to conjure the joy. You only have to stop pretending you are the one who creates it.
The capacity for laughter has not died; it is merely buried under the weight of keeping everyone else comfortable. Let the mask drop, even for a moment.
The light is not afraid of your silence. It is waiting for the real you to come up for air.
Drawing from
Luke, Gospel of Thomas
Verses
Luke 15:20
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