the terror that if you stop performing the version of yourself they love, they will finally see the emptiness and leave

The Light Beneath Your Heavy Mask

The mask feels heavy this morning, a perfect face you wear so no one sees the hollow space beneath. You are terrified that if you stop performing, the people who love this version will finally see the emptiness and leave.

But there is a light inside you that was there before the performance began, and it will be there after the mask falls. Thomas says what you look forward to has already come, but you do not recognize it because you are hiding behind the act.

The light does not need your applause or your perfection to stay; it lives in the quiet truth you are afraid to show. If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you, but if you keep it buried, the hiding will destroy you.

You are not loved for the character you play, but for the light you are trying to protect.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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