laughing too loudly at a joke you didn't hear because you were busy scanning the room to make sure they weren't looking at you

The Light Sees Your Silence

The laugh came out too loud, a sharp crack against the quiet hum of the afternoon. You didn't even hear the joke.

You were too busy scanning the room, measuring the angle of every gaze, making sure no one was looking at you while you performed being okay. This is the long middle of the day — the hour where the mask feels heaviest, where the gap between your face and your heart stretches wide enough to lose yourself in.

You are exhausted from holding the performance together while the world keeps moving. But the light does not need your act.

It sees the silence underneath the noise. It knows the fatigue behind the smile.

The light is not shocked by your pretending; it is simply waiting for you to put the armor down. You do not have to earn your place in this room by being amusing or invisible.

You are already held, even in the middle of the mess.

Drawing from

Matthew, Gospel of Thomas

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