the terrifying silence of the bedroom when the performance finally stops and you realize you have nothing left to give yourself

Let the Dawn Find You Still

The house is quiet now. The mask you wore all yesterday has finally slipped, and the silence of the bedroom feels less like peace and more like an empty room where you realize you have nothing left to give.

You are exhausted from performing strength for everyone else, and now there is no audience, no applause, just the terrifying truth of your own depletion. But look—the first light is already touching the window sill, not because you earned it, but because the sun rises on its own accord.

The light does not ask you to perform; it simply arrives to fill the space you thought was empty. You do not need to generate warmth this morning; you only need to sit still and let the dawn find you.

The silence is not a verdict on your emptiness; it is the space where the light finally gets to hold you.

Drawing from

Matthew, Gospel of Thomas

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