the terror of hearing them cry in the other room because you are too heavy to lift, and realizing your body has become a cage for the person you love most

You Are the Ground, Not the Cage

The house is quiet now, but the sound of their crying from the other room still vibrates in your chest. You wanted to go to them.

You tried to stand, to lift, to hold—but your body felt like a cage, heavy and unmoving, trapping the love you desperately need to give. In this exhaustion, the armor of the day finally drops, and all that is left is the terrible weight of being unable to fix what breaks their heart.

But listen—there was a man who lay beside a pool for thirty-eight years, unable to move, waiting for someone else to carry him to the water. The light did not scold him for his paralysis.

It did not demand he stand up first. It walked straight to the one who could not move and asked if he wanted to be well.

Your inability to lift them does not mean you have failed. The light is not waiting for your muscles to work; it is already in the room with your child, holding them when your arms cannot.

You are not a cage. You are the ground they rest on while the light does the lifting.

Drawing from

John, Luke

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