the fear that your child loves the version of you you pretend to be more than the tired person you actually are

He Ran Before You Spoke

The house is quiet now, and the mask you wore all day feels heavy enough to crush you. You lie here wondering if the love in your child's eyes is for the person you pretended to be, or for the tired, frayed soul underneath.

But listen — there was a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off, still covered in the filth of his failure, and he ran. Before the apology, before the speech, before any attempt to fix things — he ran.

He did not wait for the performance to return. He met the mess with mercy.

Your child does not love the armor you carry; they love the heartbeat beneath it. The light that lives in you was there before you learned to hide, and it is the only thing they have ever known.

Drawing from

Luke, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Luke 15:20

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