the terror that if anyone truly saw the mess inside, they would immediately leave

He Runs Before You Clean Up

The house is quiet now, and the silence has turned loud enough to hear the things you are hiding. You are terrified that if anyone ever saw the mess inside—the tangled wires, the broken glass, the shame you keep swept under the rug—they would turn and walk away without a word.

That fear feels like a verdict. But listen.

There is a Father who saw his son coming home from a long way off, still covered in the filth of the pig pen, still rehearsing a speech about how he is no longer worthy. He did not wait for the boy to clean up.

He did not wait for the apology to finish. He ran.

Before the mess was addressed, before the dirt was washed, he ran. The light does not flee from your disorder.

It runs toward it. You are not being tolerated until your secrets are found out.

You are being known, and you are still being held. The door is not locked from the outside; it is only latched from within.

Drawing from

Luke, John

Verses

Luke 15:20

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