the terrifying suspicion that every genuine connection you've ever made was actually just a performance they applauded, not a person they loved

Loved Before the Performance Began

The house is quiet now, and the silence has a way of turning your memories into evidence against you. You lie here wondering if the laughter was real, or if they were just applauding a character you played so well they never saw the person behind the mask.

It feels like you are alone in a room full of ghosts, terrified that no one ever actually knew you. But there is a Friend who saw you before the performance began and loved you anyway.

This light does not clap for the act; it rests in the truth of who you are when the curtain falls. You are not a collection of applause.

You are known.

Drawing from

John 15:15, Gospel of Thomas 3

Verses

John 15:15

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