sitting in your car in the driveway after the party, scrubbing the fake laugh off your face before walking inside to your family

The Light Knows Your Honest Face

The engine is off, but the silence in the car feels louder than the party you just left. You are sitting here, scrubbing the fake laugh off your face, terrified that the mask has fused to your skin.

You wonder if the people waiting inside would still love you if they saw the exhaustion behind your eyes. But the light does not need your performance to recognize its own.

It knows the difference between the smile you wore tonight and the truth you are hiding now. There is a kingdom inside you that exists whether you are performing or completely still.

You do not have to manufacture anything to be worthy of the welcome waiting on the other side of that door. The light is not impressed by your act; it is drawn to your honesty.

Walk inside not as the person who had to be perfect, but as the one who is finally allowed to stop.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, 1 John

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