the terror of someone noticing the crack in your voice when you laugh too loudly

The Light Runs Toward Your Breaking

The day is ending, and the armor you wore since sunrise finally feels heavy enough to drop. You laughed a little too loud today, didn't you?

Just to make sure no one noticed the tremor underneath. You are terrified that someone heard the crack in your voice, the place where the performance slipped and the real exhaustion showed through.

But listen — the light does not flinch when your voice breaks. It was not attracted to your perfection; it was drawn to your honesty.

There is a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off, still covered in the dust of his failure, and he did not wait for the speech. He ran.

Before the apology, before the explanation — he ran. The light is not waiting for you to smooth out the edges of your laugh or fix the shake in your hands.

It is already running toward the sound of your breaking. You do not have to hold it together for one more second.

The crack is not where you lose the light; it is exactly where the light gets in.

Drawing from

Luke, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Luke 15:20

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