lying awake rehearsing a casual apology for having been too heavy, terrified that your honesty ruined the room

Your Honesty Made the Room Real

The day is ending, and the armor you wore to keep the room light finally hits the floor. Now you are here, rehearsing a casual apology for having been too heavy, terrified that your honesty ruined everything.

You are trying to shrink back into a shape that fits the silence you think you broke. But listen — there was a woman who bled for twelve years, untouchable, convinced her need was a contamination.

She reached out from the crowd, trembling, and the light did not pull away. It stopped.

It turned. It called her daughter.

The light does not flee your weight. It anchors in it.

Your honesty did not drive the presence away; it was the very thing that made the room real. You are not too much for the love that holds you.

The exhale is not an apology. It is an arrival.

Drawing from

Mark, Luke

Verses

Mark 5:34

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