pretending to believe something you do not believe anymore
The day is done, and the mask you wore so carefully begins to feel heavy. You kept pretending to believe, to agree, to hold the shape of someone who is sure, even when your own heart has gone quiet.
That is the hardest part of the evening—the sudden, hollow silence where the performance used to be. But listen closely—the light does not require your performance to remain.
It was always there, waiting in the honest dark, not in the bright lie you built today. The truth is simply this: you do not have to pretend anymore, because the light inside you does not care what you believe, only that you are real.
Drop the act. Let the dark be dark, and let the real you finally breathe.
Drawing from
1 John, Gospel of Thomas
Verses
1 John 1:5, Thomas 51
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