deleting the typed confession and pretending the urge to reach out never happened

The Light Waiting Behind the Delete Key

The cursor blinks, waiting for you to finish the sentence you started three times already. You type the truth, the raw and trembling thing, and then you hit backspace.

Delete. Delete.

Delete. Until the screen is blank again, and your face is smooth, and you are ready to walk out the door and perform the version of yourself that everyone expects.

The mask fits perfectly today. It always does.

But there is a cost to carrying a face that isn't yours. It grows heavy by noon.

There was a woman who spent twelve years bleeding in a crowd, touching nothing but the edge of a cloak because she was too afraid to speak her name. She reached out in the dark, hidden in the press of bodies, and the light stopped everything just to find her.

It did not ask her to fix her appearance first. It did not ask her to clean up the mess.

It called her daughter. The light is not fooled by the smooth face you wear to work.

It sees the fingers hovering over the delete key. It sees the confession you were too afraid to send.

And it is not waiting for you to be perfect. It is waiting for you to be real.

The urge to reach out was not a mistake to be erased. It was the light tapping on the glass from the inside, asking to be let out.

Drawing from

Mark, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Mark 5:34

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