the silent rehearsal of the perfect apology you are too terrified to speak before you rip yourself apart again

The Light Runs Before You Speak

The afternoon sun is unforgiving. It exposes the dust motes dancing in the air and the cracks in the pavement you tried to ignore.

In this long middle of the day, you are rehearsing lines you will never speak. You are building a perfect apology in the quiet of your mind, polishing every word until it shines, because you are terrified that if you say it wrong, you will rip yourself apart again.

You hold the speech behind your teeth like a stone. But listen — the light does not need your performance.

It does not require a flawless delivery to reach you. There was a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off.

He did not wait for the speech. He ran.

Before the apology, before the explanation, before the shame could even finish forming — he ran. The light is already running toward you.

You do not have to get the words perfect. You just have to open your mouth.

Drawing from

Luke, Matthew

Verses

Luke 15:20, Matthew 10:26

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