sitting across the breakfast table from your spouse, making small talk about the weather while your heart screams that you are already gone

Light Hidden in the Mundane Ache

The coffee cup is warm in your hand, but the silence across the table is cold. You talk about the rain, about the traffic, about anything except the chasm that has opened between your chairs.

It is the hardest part of the day — this long middle where you are both present, yet already gone. You feel like a ghost in your own kitchen.

But the light does not require you to feel close to be held. It is not hiding in the grand gestures or the perfect conversations.

It is right here, in the mundane ache of trying. Split a piece of wood, and the light is there.

Lift up the stone of this awkward silence, and you will find it there too. The connection has not been severed; it is simply buried under the dust of the ordinary.

You do not need to fix the distance right now. You only need to remain.

The vine does not demand that the branch understand how the sap flows. It only asks that you stay attached.

Even here. Even now.

The light is in the room, waiting for you to stop performing and start breathing.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

Verses

John 15:5

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