The Truth That Lets Light In
It is three in the morning, and the only light in the room comes from the screen in your hand. You are staring at their faces—smiling, eating, whole—while you rehearse the sentence that will shatter the silence.
'I lost it all.' You say it to the dark. You say it to the glass.
You try on different versions, different tones, searching for one that won't break them. But the words stick in your throat like ash.
In this hour, the weight of what is gone feels heavier than the earth itself. You feel like an intruder in your own life, standing outside the warmth you can no longer afford to enter.
— The light does not ask you to fix the ruin before you speak. It does not require you to have a plan for the wreckage.
It only asks that you stop hiding the broken pieces in the dark. There is a presence sitting with you on the floor that knows the cost of everything you have lost.
It is not shocked by the number. It is not disappointed by the fall.
It is simply here, in the silence between your rehearsals, holding the space where your shame tries to scream. You do not have to protect them from the truth tonight.
The truth is already known by the one who holds you. The sentence you are afraid to speak is the very thing that will let the light in.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Luke
Verses
Luke 12:7
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