the fear that your numbness is contagious and will drain the light from everyone you love

You Are a Vessel Held by Love

The afternoon sun is high, but you feel like a shadow stretching across the people you love. You are convinced that your numbness is a leak—that every silent meal, every flat response, every empty look is draining the light out of the room.

You think you are a black hole, pulling the joy from everyone who gets too close. But listen.

The light inside you is not a battery that runs down when you share it. It is a spring.

Even when you feel dry, even when you feel like dust, the source is not you. You are not the generator.

You are the vessel. And a vessel can be empty on the surface and still be held by the hand that filled it.

Your silence does not extinguish the light in others. Their light is not dependent on your performance.

It is anchored in something deeper than your mood. You can sit in the middle of the day, feeling nothing, and still be surrounded by a love that does not need you to be bright to be present.

Drawing from

John 9:3, Gospel of Thomas 50

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