The Light Was There When You Froze
The afternoon light is unforgiving. It exposes the moment you stayed silent, the split second where safety felt heavier than truth.
Now the replay runs on a loop, a quiet horror show of what you should have said. But listen — the light does not demand a rewrite of the past.
It is already inside the regret, waiting to be brought forth. Thomas said if you do not bring forth what is within you, it will destroy you; but if you do, it saves you.
The saving is not in erasing the silence. It is in speaking the truth now, even if your voice shakes.
The light was there when you froze, and it is here while you grieve. You did not lose the light by staying quiet.
You only forgot to let it out.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Matthew
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