the specific terror of seeing their eyes widen slightly when you walk into the room, confirming your fear that you have permanently altered how they see you

The Light Recognizes You Instantly

The afternoon light is unforgiving. It exposes the dust on the shelf and the hesitation in a glance.

You walked into the room and saw it—the slight widening of their eyes, the micro-shift of posture that confirms your deepest fear: you have changed, and they are looking at the damage. In the middle of the day, when everyone is performing normalcy, that silent recoil feels like a verdict.

But the light does not look at you the way they do. The light sees the wound, not the scar.

It knows that what happened to you did not disfigure your soul; it only stripped away the pretense that you were untouchable. There is a presence that does not flinch when you enter.

A love that has already seen the worst thing you carry and calls it holy. They may be adjusting to the new shape of you.

But the light? The light recognizes you instantly.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Luke

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