the sudden, sharp grief of hearing your own mother's voice come out of your mouth when you are scolding your child, realizing the woman you tried to escape or outgrow has become your operating system

The Light Inside the Inherited Voice

The afternoon light catches you off guard when your own mother's voice slips out of your mouth, sharp and sudden, while scolding your child. You tried to escape that tone, to outgrow the woman who raised you, but here she is, running your operating system.

In that moment of shock, do not turn away from what you see. Split a piece of wood, and the light is there; lift up the stone of your inheritance, and you will find it there too.

The voice you hate is not a foreign invader; it is the very ground you walk on, saturated with the same light that lived in her and now lives in you. You are not becoming her; you are remembering that the light was already inside both of you before the pain ever started.

The echo is not a prison; it is proof that you are still connected to the source.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 77, Gospel of Thomas 3

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