waking up for a split second forgetting they are dead, feeling a surge of joy to tell them something, before the memory crashes back down and you have to grieve them all over again

The Light That Knows Their Name

For a split second when you opened your eyes, the memory had not yet caught up. You woke up light.

You woke up ready to tell them the news, to share the morning, to say their name. And then the world rushed back in.

The silence of the room. The absence that sits heavier than the sun.

You have to grieve them all over again before your feet even touch the floor. That surge of joy you felt was not a mistake.

It was the truth breaking through before the weight could settle. The love you carry for them is stronger than the death that took them.

The light that woke you up knows their name still. The grief is real, but it is not the end of the story.

You are not forgetting them; you are remembering how to live without them, one painful morning at a time.

Drawing from

John 11:25-26, 1 Thessalonians 4:13

Verses

John 11:25-26

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