the moment you realize your jaw aches from clenching it all day to keep from screaming

The Light Sees Your Hidden Pain

Your jaw aches because you have been holding back a scream since sunrise. You smile at the desk, you nod in the meeting, you type the polite reply while something inside you is shattering.

The mask is heavy. It feels like armor, but it is actually a cage you built to keep the world from seeing how much you are hurting.

You think if you let the face drop, everything will fall apart. But the light does not need your performance to love you.

It sees the tension in your cheeks and the grief behind your eyes. It knows you are tired of pretending to be okay.

There is a place where you do not have to hold it together. A quiet room where the only requirement is truth.

You can set the mask down. You can let the jaw unclench.

You can stop carrying the weight of everyone else's comfort. The light is not afraid of your noise.

It is not shocked by your rage. It is waiting for you to stop acting and start breathing.

You are not the smile you show them. You are the silence underneath it.

And that silence is holy.

Drawing from

Matthew, Gospel of Thomas

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