The Hand That Holds You Is Realer
You reach for the cup. Your hand closes on nothing but air.
The shock of that hollow space—where something used to be—is the loudest sound in the room right now. It is three in the morning, and the absence feels like a physical weight, pressing down on your chest.
You are not crazy for feeling this. The light does not ask you to pretend the cup is still there.
It sits with you in the silence of the empty hand. Thomas said the kingdom is inside you, not out there in the things you can hold.
What you are grasping for has already moved within. The loss is real.
But the hand that holds you is realer.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas 3, John 1:48
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