Your honesty is an invitation, not a crime
Tonight, the house is quiet enough to hear the echo of your own honesty, and it feels like a crime. You are carrying the heavy shame of realizing you spent years worshipping a version of God small enough to be offended by your truth.
You thought your doubt was a wall, but it was actually a door you were finally brave enough to open. The light does not flinch when you speak; it does not cover its ears when you rage or question or weep.
God is light; in him there is no darkness at all, and that means there is no part of your story too jagged for him to hold. That small god you feared was a statue made by human hands, but the true light is immeasurable and cannot be insulted by a human heart seeking air.
You are not being cast out for your honesty; you are being invited in because you finally stopped pretending. The silence of this hour is not a judgment; it is the space where the real God meets the real you.
Drawing from
1 John, Apocryphon of John
Verses
1 John 1:5, Apocryphon of John 2:26-30
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