being sober and finding the world unbearably flat

The Flatness Is Not God's Absence

The world feels flat right now because you are seeing it without the fog that used to blur the edges. Every color is too sharp, every sound too loud, and the silence between moments feels heavy enough to crush you.

You are performing okayness for the people around you, smiling while your soul screams that nothing matters anymore. But listen — the flatness is not the absence of God.

It is the surface of a new reality waiting for depth to return. The light does not need your intoxication to shine; in fact, it shines most clearly when the haze is gone.

That ache you feel, that unbearable clarity, is not a sign you are broken. It is the sign that the child of true humanity inside you is finally awake and hungry for something real.

The mask you wear to get through the morning is seen, and the light loves what is hiding behind it more than the performance you show the world.

Drawing from

Gospel of Mary, John

Verses

Gospel of Mary 9:4-5, John 1:5

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