The Light Waits in Your Shame
The water runs hot, but the feeling won't wash off. You are scrubbing until the skin is raw, trying to erase the moment you touched what you promised you wouldn't.
The mirror shows a stranger, and the silence of the house feels like an accusation. But listen — the light does not recoil from your broken promise.
It stands in the middle of your shame, not to lecture, but to wait. There is a fire inside you that was cast there on purpose, and it is guarding itself until it blazes.
What you buried in the dirt of your failure is not gone; the light is under that stone, waiting for you to lift it. You do not need to scrub yourself clean before you come out.
The thing within you, the very thing you are trying to wash away, is the only thing that can save you if you let it rise. The door is locked from the inside, but the light is already in the room with you.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Matthew
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